i've been referred to as many things lately:
sweet, cold, barbarian, the perennial doormat, whiner, the one who drinks the most (the idiot who came up with that clearly is what he is), etc.

but this ranks as the funniest of all:

n.e.r.d.

and i am not referring to pharrell's act. pssh.

i know very well why i've been branded as such. you see, normally..

i come into class, not bothered with whats going on.
don't give a hoot who i am sitting next to.
throw out a battered stack of module documents.
dig out three highlighters- pink, green and yellow.
and listen.
and colourize the otherwise bland material.
and listen some more.
and bolt out the door as soon as the lecture is over.

ask me over lunch what went on during class, and i'd most likely reply with a :
'ha...?'

that was then.

but this is now.

it is sophomore year. need i remind you.

this year counts.

so it came as a surprise (or shock however you choose to see it) to some- while others couldnt be less bothered- that i have managed to make myself invisible for the past 30 days or do.
one joker thought i had died. for real.

the friends i have........

i am fighting temptation.

and i have done well. so far at least.

zili can't tell me off anymore. jeat need not ask me what is it that i think i am doing. ah wei shall no longer express his disapproval. and neptune... so much for pot calling the kettle black, can call me biatch a little less.

which is good.

shaz is working.

i give nerds a bad name.

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this year, like every other year where i sit for something as important, a theme song plays in my head. for the entire duration of say.... 10 hours worth of scribbling? give or take...
i wonder what it would fee like not having one year when i dont have to worry about having a paper to do...

this year.... it's this one:

stars when you shine
you know how i feel
scent of the pine
you know how i feel
freedom is mine...

for all those times i seem to have neglected you, i'll make up for it.
<3

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